Insanity as a Good Thing

I just finished reading chapter 5 of Holiness of God by R.C. Sproul.  This is a very good chapter; very entertaining to read as well.  You have this man who insults people and make absurd comments that boggles your mind.  Martin Luther, the man who changed the thinking of Christians that we're justified by faith alone, is the man that Sproul talks about in chapter 5.  I had some chuckles of what Luther says to people that critizes him.

Yet, this is a man who knew his sins.  The man who continually confesses his sins to God for he knows just how sinful he is.  The man who says "if the Great Commandment was to love God with all the heart, then the Great Transgression was to fail to love God with all the heart."  How simple is that!  And yet, it's not simple to be practicing for we all don't love God every second of our life (it's what we wish to do).  The man who knows just how majestic and powerful our God is that he feared to even continue the Mass because he did not know what to say when he was up on the altar.  Oh, how I wish I could be like this man, who feared God and knew of his sins in this world.

I finished Isaiah about a week ago.  Isaiah as well knew just how sinful he was.  He knew why the world was being punished, of God's anger toward his people.  Isaiah knew just how unworthy he was in front of God in Isaiah 6.  And yet, God has kept his faithfulness towards his people, continually promising them of a Redeemer, a Savior.  Promising them of Jesus who will be the Savior of this world.

Starting Ecclesiastes, the speaker knew just how sinful the world is when he continues to seek after wisdom and knowledge.  He knows how worthless things of the world is, how certain things aren't answered because we simply can't find that answer.  And yet, the speaker at the end knows that God is to be feared and we need to be doing works of this world with a joyful heart.

What do i find?  God is an amazing God.  I can't help but see that I am a sinner, a worthless, horrible sinner that is not worthy of knowing God.  It humbles me and breaks me to the point where I feel like I'm in a fetal position of emotional breakdown...

I wish to be "insane" like Luther.  I wish that we all be "insane" like Luther so that we may taste the righteousness that is by faith alone.

Happy Holidays!... almost =]

Wow it's been a while since i updated.

School has been where I spent part of my time. Finals week was just last week, and I just came back from CCM retreat!

I've learned a lot from the speaker, speaking about very relevant stuff for us as college students: purity and lust, finding a spouse/future, no excuse for being young, and pursuit of holiness. Something we struggle with constantly as college students (could apply to young adults as well). One thing I've learned that in the past, I have been asking God for a significant other to come into my life. I've never realized that I had to change for the better for my significant other to come by. Not solely for her, but for God as well. And when I do change for the better, I've realized that if I were to become celibate, how I've changed ultimately is by God's grace and for God. That I am pursuing this righteous life because that is what God ask of us and us to do it not as a burden but as a joy for Him! What an amazing God!

Thank you all for the encouragements! I enjoyed reading them and I appreciate what you wrote =]! I hope all of you will know God a lot more throughout the year. I'll make my efforts to meet up with the freshmen and ask the upperclassmen their time for dinner and lunch.

Happy Holidays! Enjoy these pictures in celebration of the upcoming Holiday! =]

Rage, Rage, go away.... you're still here

I've realized these past few days I've had two problems: I get angered easily and I'm starting to complain.

2 post before this, I wrote about how God is my control tower and I should just be happy about the things I'm going through. Well, it has been better with complaining, caught myself in small group complaining thanks to Alex Yi! I have been trying not to complain. Usually I don't really complain; I just listen and do things people asked me with no hesitation. Maybe a few "oh it's too hot" or "I'm so lazy and tired" (which I should stop as well and be happy). Hopefully, this complaining is put away and I do things joyfully because God has brought whatever obstacles or struggles into my life.

Anger, however, is becoming an issue that I cannot ignore. I don't remember when anger took over my thoughts; it was more irritated or frustrated than angry. But, I've been angry, I believe, twice because of certain situations that arose. I feel it's stupid situations too that I know my friends are joking with me about (least one of them are; hopefully the other is too). But, I just can say I have been agitated easily and my patience has been running thin. I don't know the reason why this anger has suddenly came up in my mind and heart, but I'm not liking it. Another thing I've noticed is that when I am angry, Pandora's box is opened. All these doors to sin starts opening up, and I'm more susceptible and tempted to take them.

If you are reading this, then I ask you for two things: please pray for me. Pray that my heart goes back to the love for others just as God loves me. Pray that I may have more patience when dealing with certain things. Also, keep me accountable with these struggles.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!

Happy Turkey Day to all!

As we all know, this is a day where we are thankful for so many blessings in our lives. How appropriate is it then to say what I am thankful for! These are the blessings I am thankful for:

-Thankful for God and his character! He is a great God who loves us and watches over us. And yes, he also disciplines and rebukes us whenever we're doing wrong.
-Thankful for my family! Just having a great home with a loving family who cares for me. I love my family!
-Thankful for my friends! Having friends who I can talk to and joke around with. Friends who care about my spiritual and physical health. I love you guys and gals!
-Thankful about where I live! California! United States is so well off that I tend to forget just how blessed we are to live here.
-Thankful for my church! Berean has been a great church that helped me to grow a lot! I hope it's the same this year!
-Thankful for what God has created in this world! Music, nature, school, and so much more that I take for granted. God created this to use it to glorify himself and for us to enjoy!

It's a short list and a brief description, but this is really what I am thankful for. Some of these I take for granted, but I realize that without it, I wouldn't be who I am or where I'll be right now. Thank you!!! Soon it'll be dinner and then after this, CHRISTMAS!!!! YES!!! Christmas playlist already playing on my computer and KOST 103.5 playing songs too.

The picture above is something my cousin made! It's a newspaper article about me and she just wanted to do it for fun! hahaha so freaking cute. I think I'm going to enjoy my Christmas and Thanksgiving more with my cousins since I can talk to them!

The Control Tower in my Life

This week just has been crazy. Though it has been crazy, I've learned something from this struggle with life. God is great!

I've been stressing over my essay that was due yesterday. Along with that, I had a quiz that I did not study for until Thursday late at night. Throughout that day, I have been complaining and feeling frustrated.

That night after studying, I found out that my 9 o' clock class was canceled. I was ecstatic and relieved, yelling "Praise God!" Now, I realized that God is great and watching out for me.

Just now, I was reading the Ephesian commentary and read about verse 11-12 of chapter 1. This verse talked about election and how Christian Jews were the first to be promised about the salvation, following with the Gentile believers. The commentary then mentions about us being sealed by God as his possession. We were inherited by God, and God now controls everything about us. By the end of this week, I knew I was tired, stressed, and frustrated and I know that God knew that. Because of this, my early morning class has been canceled which meant one more hour of sleep. God has been watching out for me.

Through this experience, I now know that God has been faithful to me while I myself were just complaining and griming about my problems. As a friend of mine told me, I needed to suck it up and just rely on God a lot more. Complaining does not glorify God and just brings a frustrated heart. I though those were harsh words at that time, but it fits so well with this trial I just had.

I hope that this experience would remind myself of God's sovereignty and faithfulness in my life. This is not something I write nonchalantly and forget about it the next day.

The birth of a new blog!

Yay for a new blog!

This is the start of a new blog which I may post here and there of whatever i feel.
I guess the reason for this is just to transfer some of my thoughts on to some place
where it can be read by public if it's helpful.

Also, writing in some place where I know will exist till i delete it or something.

That's my 10 cents. Hopefully, I'll be able to post more often.