Rage, Rage, go away.... you're still here

I've realized these past few days I've had two problems: I get angered easily and I'm starting to complain.

2 post before this, I wrote about how God is my control tower and I should just be happy about the things I'm going through. Well, it has been better with complaining, caught myself in small group complaining thanks to Alex Yi! I have been trying not to complain. Usually I don't really complain; I just listen and do things people asked me with no hesitation. Maybe a few "oh it's too hot" or "I'm so lazy and tired" (which I should stop as well and be happy). Hopefully, this complaining is put away and I do things joyfully because God has brought whatever obstacles or struggles into my life.

Anger, however, is becoming an issue that I cannot ignore. I don't remember when anger took over my thoughts; it was more irritated or frustrated than angry. But, I've been angry, I believe, twice because of certain situations that arose. I feel it's stupid situations too that I know my friends are joking with me about (least one of them are; hopefully the other is too). But, I just can say I have been agitated easily and my patience has been running thin. I don't know the reason why this anger has suddenly came up in my mind and heart, but I'm not liking it. Another thing I've noticed is that when I am angry, Pandora's box is opened. All these doors to sin starts opening up, and I'm more susceptible and tempted to take them.

If you are reading this, then I ask you for two things: please pray for me. Pray that my heart goes back to the love for others just as God loves me. Pray that I may have more patience when dealing with certain things. Also, keep me accountable with these struggles.

Happy Thanksgiving to all!

Happy Turkey Day to all!

As we all know, this is a day where we are thankful for so many blessings in our lives. How appropriate is it then to say what I am thankful for! These are the blessings I am thankful for:

-Thankful for God and his character! He is a great God who loves us and watches over us. And yes, he also disciplines and rebukes us whenever we're doing wrong.
-Thankful for my family! Just having a great home with a loving family who cares for me. I love my family!
-Thankful for my friends! Having friends who I can talk to and joke around with. Friends who care about my spiritual and physical health. I love you guys and gals!
-Thankful about where I live! California! United States is so well off that I tend to forget just how blessed we are to live here.
-Thankful for my church! Berean has been a great church that helped me to grow a lot! I hope it's the same this year!
-Thankful for what God has created in this world! Music, nature, school, and so much more that I take for granted. God created this to use it to glorify himself and for us to enjoy!

It's a short list and a brief description, but this is really what I am thankful for. Some of these I take for granted, but I realize that without it, I wouldn't be who I am or where I'll be right now. Thank you!!! Soon it'll be dinner and then after this, CHRISTMAS!!!! YES!!! Christmas playlist already playing on my computer and KOST 103.5 playing songs too.

The picture above is something my cousin made! It's a newspaper article about me and she just wanted to do it for fun! hahaha so freaking cute. I think I'm going to enjoy my Christmas and Thanksgiving more with my cousins since I can talk to them!

The Control Tower in my Life

This week just has been crazy. Though it has been crazy, I've learned something from this struggle with life. God is great!

I've been stressing over my essay that was due yesterday. Along with that, I had a quiz that I did not study for until Thursday late at night. Throughout that day, I have been complaining and feeling frustrated.

That night after studying, I found out that my 9 o' clock class was canceled. I was ecstatic and relieved, yelling "Praise God!" Now, I realized that God is great and watching out for me.

Just now, I was reading the Ephesian commentary and read about verse 11-12 of chapter 1. This verse talked about election and how Christian Jews were the first to be promised about the salvation, following with the Gentile believers. The commentary then mentions about us being sealed by God as his possession. We were inherited by God, and God now controls everything about us. By the end of this week, I knew I was tired, stressed, and frustrated and I know that God knew that. Because of this, my early morning class has been canceled which meant one more hour of sleep. God has been watching out for me.

Through this experience, I now know that God has been faithful to me while I myself were just complaining and griming about my problems. As a friend of mine told me, I needed to suck it up and just rely on God a lot more. Complaining does not glorify God and just brings a frustrated heart. I though those were harsh words at that time, but it fits so well with this trial I just had.

I hope that this experience would remind myself of God's sovereignty and faithfulness in my life. This is not something I write nonchalantly and forget about it the next day.

The birth of a new blog!

Yay for a new blog!

This is the start of a new blog which I may post here and there of whatever i feel.
I guess the reason for this is just to transfer some of my thoughts on to some place
where it can be read by public if it's helpful.

Also, writing in some place where I know will exist till i delete it or something.

That's my 10 cents. Hopefully, I'll be able to post more often.